Scary Ride

I'm feeling a little more manic tonight that I want to. But I am aware of it. I'm panicing a little that He isn't home yet. But I'm ok. I'm holding it together - I have to concentrate on patience.

I wish He hadn't left me today. I really needed a day of hanging out with him - no stress. No distraction. I guess He isn't ready to spend that much time with me yet. I wish He liked me more.

Anyway - its' cool. He's a grown man and as my Master I will think only of his pleasure and be patient and steady in my goal to be His perfect sub/slave. I'm so twisted that anything He does to me - I find a way to make it make me horny.

Fuck me with your girlfriend.

and I'd like it - I want to be made to do these things. He knows I like it. I want my Master to Dominate me absolutely and make me His own.

I pray that I can be worthy of having Him as my Master. I pray that I can be the sub/slave He deserves and I pray that He will choose to mark me as his own one day.

In the mean time it is His privilege to take care of whatever business he chooses to take care of. It is my job only to be ready when he arrives.

If He wants me to be.