i'm blogging on www.soulcast.com now. same name.
Master/slave (BDSM) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia: "Christina Abernathy, Erotic Slavehood: A Miss Abernathy Omnibus. Greenery Press, 2007. ISBN 1890159719.
Jack Rinella, Becoming a slave. Rinella Editorial Services, 2005. ISBN 0940267209.
Jack Rinella, The Complete Slave: Creating and Living an Erotic Dominant/Submissive Lifestyle. Daedelus publishing Co, 2002. ISBN 1-881943-13-5."
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Master/slave (BDSM) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
i'm blogging on www.soulcast.com now. same name.
Master/slave (BDSM) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia: "Christina Abernathy, Erotic Slavehood: A Miss Abernathy Omnibus. Greenery Press, 2007. ISBN 1890159719.
Jack Rinella, Becoming a slave. Rinella Editorial Services, 2005. ISBN 0940267209.
Jack Rinella, The Complete Slave: Creating and Living an Erotic Dominant/Submissive Lifestyle. Daedelus publishing Co, 2002. ISBN 1-881943-13-5."
Master/slave (BDSM) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia: "Christina Abernathy, Erotic Slavehood: A Miss Abernathy Omnibus. Greenery Press, 2007. ISBN 1890159719.
Jack Rinella, Becoming a slave. Rinella Editorial Services, 2005. ISBN 0940267209.
Jack Rinella, The Complete Slave: Creating and Living an Erotic Dominant/Submissive Lifestyle. Daedelus publishing Co, 2002. ISBN 1-881943-13-5."
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Blogging at a New Site
I'm gonna continue my blog at soulcast.com - it has a community of people there experiencing some of the same things I am and they provide commentary and support.
Here's the link to the new spot. And quite a few other blogs on the same topic too.
http://www.soulcast.com/madisonluvsex/
Here's the link to the new spot. And quite a few other blogs on the same topic too.
http://www.soulcast.com/madisonluvsex/
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Good News!
Hadn't gotten around to blogging yet today when my Master texted me to say we will play tonight!! YEAH!!! My pussy is tingling all ready!! I'll spend the rest of the next few hours readying myself and all his tools.
Yummy, yummy, yummy.
Does this mean I'm doing something right?!
I wasn't sure he was coming home last night - he spent the day with his friend - but he did come home and I was happy, I'm happy again today - and, we may have a date this weekend with a girl who might be a third for us!! YEAH!!
Yummy, yummy, yummy.
Does this mean I'm doing something right?!
I wasn't sure he was coming home last night - he spent the day with his friend - but he did come home and I was happy, I'm happy again today - and, we may have a date this weekend with a girl who might be a third for us!! YEAH!!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Defining Roles
Just read another blog http://www.soulcast.com/post/show/206583/Needing-Advice haven't read much of it but it brings up an excellent point. I tend, for one reason or another to find myself "playing" sub at various times through a regular day - during vanilla activities I like to be in the role. Not 24/7 but I just find myself slipping into it sometimes. I guess when I want my Master's attention or when I'd like to place myself at his command - in anything.
It makes me horny. God, I must be crazy. It makes me so horny to think of me being my Master's slave all the time. It makes me feel good all over. and scared to death.
But, back to the topic at hand - I don't know how my Master really feels about it. I don't know that he wants the responsibility or if it gets him off enough to practice being those people more of the time. It's exciting to think about - but it's something we need to talk about I guess. It makes me breathless to think about having him collar me in a ceremony and mark me as his own one day. I will be patient and show my Master I am worthy of being his slave.
Fuck me! I'm sick. I wonder if Master thinks so or if he likes it. He was turned on by it last week - but I screwed up and got mouthy and gave him cause to doubt my dedication to being his sub. I love to think about him being hard while he thinks of me waiting for him and wet with desire to please him. Available for him to do anything he likes with me and to me.
wow
It makes me horny. God, I must be crazy. It makes me so horny to think of me being my Master's slave all the time. It makes me feel good all over. and scared to death.
But, back to the topic at hand - I don't know how my Master really feels about it. I don't know that he wants the responsibility or if it gets him off enough to practice being those people more of the time. It's exciting to think about - but it's something we need to talk about I guess. It makes me breathless to think about having him collar me in a ceremony and mark me as his own one day. I will be patient and show my Master I am worthy of being his slave.
Fuck me! I'm sick. I wonder if Master thinks so or if he likes it. He was turned on by it last week - but I screwed up and got mouthy and gave him cause to doubt my dedication to being his sub. I love to think about him being hard while he thinks of me waiting for him and wet with desire to please him. Available for him to do anything he likes with me and to me.
wow
The Feeling (and Conquering ) of Anger
Life is very strange. I recognize the feelings and symptoms of anger. I feel like a junkie. I have to recognize my own symptoms before they take hold. That's the trick. My face goes numb and tingly - I can feel the blood in my ears. I can even make it happen by thinking about it.
That's horrifying. Anyway, my Master has decided that I need another 'me' day. On my own. It's his absence which makes me study my anger - so he's right I suppose. I'd like to be happy for more than two or three days at a time though. And remember what it is I'm fighting for.
If Master decides to give me the kind of 'me' day where I am at peace and in joy with him, that would bring me great joy. Tender loving sex would be lovely too. Those are gifts I would ask my Master for should he choose to give me a gift.
I wonder if I am really going to travel down this road to living my life as a sub. Where does the line get drawn. I don't know yet. But I despair at the thought of "allowing" my self to "allow" my husband to continue to have girlfriends on the side. I don't like it. The thought brings my anger up. So where do I draw the line?
I guess we'll see.
I just really feel like a dose of love from someone - preferably my Master :). I like fun as much and more than most people, and I believe my Master has my best interest at heart, but I'm gonna get sad if I don't get some love soon. lol. So.... the decision is made. I will wait. Be patient. I'd like a drunk on wine night with candles and romance and love. My new fantasy!!
Firelight, candles, wine, me in my collar and dressed to please my Master. Tits bound? something tight, with my pussy and ass out. mmmmmmmmmmmm..........
I'm such a pervert.
No wonder I'm desperate to keep my Master - the thought of ever letting anyone else be my Master is unthinkable. and the thought of not having a Master isn't cool either. I really really get off on it. It's pretty fucking weird.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!! Just had a thought and it's a doozy and I can and will do fucking anything for this man, my Master. Probably. Like the fantasy with L tied up and me brought in to lick her for him and her and I fucking for him. and my helping him fuck her and even possibly me showing her how to suck his cock right.
So, my thought just now was him fucking her and coming home and fucking me. and her and I being friends who both fuck my Master. Is she sub too then? She says she wants to be tied - if my Master was telling me the truth about that... and of the three of us having fun together.
I would love this fantasy even more with the someone we both liked!! I still have reservations about L. As my Master does - we'll keep hanging out and having fun hopefully and we'll either integrate her into our life or he won't choose to. or she won't choose to.
That's horrifying. Anyway, my Master has decided that I need another 'me' day. On my own. It's his absence which makes me study my anger - so he's right I suppose. I'd like to be happy for more than two or three days at a time though. And remember what it is I'm fighting for.
If Master decides to give me the kind of 'me' day where I am at peace and in joy with him, that would bring me great joy. Tender loving sex would be lovely too. Those are gifts I would ask my Master for should he choose to give me a gift.
I wonder if I am really going to travel down this road to living my life as a sub. Where does the line get drawn. I don't know yet. But I despair at the thought of "allowing" my self to "allow" my husband to continue to have girlfriends on the side. I don't like it. The thought brings my anger up. So where do I draw the line?
I guess we'll see.
I just really feel like a dose of love from someone - preferably my Master :). I like fun as much and more than most people, and I believe my Master has my best interest at heart, but I'm gonna get sad if I don't get some love soon. lol. So.... the decision is made. I will wait. Be patient. I'd like a drunk on wine night with candles and romance and love. My new fantasy!!
Firelight, candles, wine, me in my collar and dressed to please my Master. Tits bound? something tight, with my pussy and ass out. mmmmmmmmmmmm..........
I'm such a pervert.
No wonder I'm desperate to keep my Master - the thought of ever letting anyone else be my Master is unthinkable. and the thought of not having a Master isn't cool either. I really really get off on it. It's pretty fucking weird.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!! Just had a thought and it's a doozy and I can and will do fucking anything for this man, my Master. Probably. Like the fantasy with L tied up and me brought in to lick her for him and her and I fucking for him. and my helping him fuck her and even possibly me showing her how to suck his cock right.
So, my thought just now was him fucking her and coming home and fucking me. and her and I being friends who both fuck my Master. Is she sub too then? She says she wants to be tied - if my Master was telling me the truth about that... and of the three of us having fun together.
I would love this fantasy even more with the someone we both liked!! I still have reservations about L. As my Master does - we'll keep hanging out and having fun hopefully and we'll either integrate her into our life or he won't choose to. or she won't choose to.
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